A Princess and A Lady

3/12/2011

A Princess and A Lady

All of my life I have struggled with an identity crisis. I seem to define myself based solely upon the opinion of others.

Questions concerning what I like, what I want, what my ‘favorite’ is, always leave me feeling inadequate and kind of stupid. What kind of special idiot does not know what they like or dislike?

Other people seem to be able to blurt out their favorite songs, movies, foods, books, things to do, places to go, etc. with such ease.

I never understood this. I still don’t.

I don’t have favorites.

Oh sure, I like something enough to call it my favorite today, but by tomorrow I will have moved on to something new to call my favorite.

If I was to make a list of everything I had called my favorite in my life, there would be very few things in this world left off the list. But tell me to make a list of my favorites for this day and I may not be able to list one thing.

Most things become my favorite because of someone else’s approval of it.

If I am wearing a shirt and I receive a compliment, that shirt becomes my ‘favorite’ and stays that way until the next compliment comes along.

If someone disapproves of it, I may never wear it again.

If I hear a song or see a movie that I really like, all it takes is one other person on the planet to validate it was good and onto the favorite list it goes.

If you don’t like it, I question why I thought I might. I over analyze it until I come to the conclusion that I never really liked it either.

It is really quite sad, but I have come to accept THAT as my defining mark.

I am a chameleon.

I become my surroundings and I can change my colors to match those of my surroundings. I can blend into almost any crowd and find a place I fit.

I thought I was a leader, but perhaps that is just because I was surrounded by leaders.

I am (only) a chameleon.

This CAN be a blessing if I learn to use it the way God gave it to me to use. The fact that I have less of a preconceived notion of who I THINK I am, what I THINK I like, should make it easier on me to become who God ACTUALLY created me to be. I should have less junk to throw away.

I am practicing.

For starters I am learning to define myself based solely upon the opinion of my Creator.

My first lesson is that I am a princess and I am a lady.

Scripture proves this to be true.

Scripture tells me that I am adopted. Scripture tells me that God is my Father. I am God’s child.

{For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God. The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship. And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.” The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. Romans 8:14-16

But when the set time had fully come, God sent his Son, born of a woman, born under the law, to redeem those under the law, that we might receive adoption to sonship. Because you are his sons, God sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, the Spirit who calls out, “Abba, Father.” So you are no longer a slave, but God’s child; and since you are his child, God has made you also an heir. Galatians 4:4-7}

I am God’s daughter.

The absolute sovereignty of God and His eternal kingdom signifies that I am the daughter of The KING of kings.

The daughter of a king is a princess. By definition this makes me a princess.

Scripture also tells me that I am to be Christ’s bride.

{I am jealous for you with a godly jealousy. I promised you to one husband, to Christ, so that I might present you as a pure virgin to him. 2 Corinthians 11:2

Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word, and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless. Ephesians 5:25-27

Then I heard what sounded like a great multitude, like the roar of rushing waters and like loud peals of thunder, shouting: “Hallelujah! For our Lord God Almighty reigns. Let us rejoice and be glad and give him glory! For the wedding of the Lamb has come, and his bride has made herself ready. Fine linen, bright and clean, was given her to wear.” (Fine linen stands for the righteous acts of God’s holy people.)Then the angel said to me, “Write this: Blessed are those who are invited to the wedding supper of the Lamb!” And he added, “These are the true words of God.” Revelation 19:6-9}

I have professed that Jesus Christ is Lord of my life.

Scripture tells me Jesus is THE LORD of lords.

I am the bride of THE LORD of lords. I am Christ’s bride.

The bride of a lord is a lady. This means that I am a lady.

The first step to knowing what you like is to know WHO you are.

I am a Princess and I am a Lady!

I am practicing using these filters to determine what my favorites REALLY are. This is a humbling journey and an exciting one too. For the first time in my life I am finding out who I am.

Thank you Father for loving me this much!!

1 Corinthians 10:31 (KJV) …whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God!

Be blessed and know that Jesus ADORES you! And so do I!